I was going to write this yesterday, cuz even though it's the holidays I seem to still have time on Saturdays. But then I found out that the wedding I was going to was on that particular day. Coincidentally, that was my second anniversary at dA, I actually thought today was, but whatever.

I don't actually have a lot to say. I would have if I had wrote this a few weeks ago, but I've finished school. No more ICT coursework to worry about.

I've recently discovered that I'm intolerant to certain types of food. I know four of them, I can't remember them all, and now my Mum's in Ireland and she knows the lists. So even though I'm intolerant to them, I'm still eating them. Wheat, milk, yeast and egg yolk. That's what I remember. They used to make up my entire diet. Now I have to use an alternative to milk, "Oat milk", which is sickening.

A few days ago I was seriously ill where I couldn't eat. And everything I did eat, I got a pain in my stomach. Everything I'd eat, I know what paid I'd get. The only thing I ate that entire day was a Kit-Kat, and then I had porridge around 9pm.

Even now I'm not eating a lot. So far today all I've had is a pack of crisps, three chocolate-rich-tea biscuits (milk+wheat = FAIL) and a cup of sprite. And my stomach hurts. It hurts all the time. I swear, doesn't matter what I eat, it will still always hurt.

I hate food.

But I'm still loving my music.

It's increasing rapidly right now. I'd expect it to get close to 1500 pretty soon. Of course, it's all Trance. I don't have the time to listen to anything else.

Depression: yes. Depression is pretty much a battle with your mind. When you're depressed you don't do very much apart from thinking. Everything you do is in your head, and speaking? Rarely. You think so much before you do actually open your mouth. Or is that just me?

Depression is a battle with your mind. It's basically deciding everything you do, and it gives you no freedom. It really sucks. Although I might be a little different. No doubt, my lack of social skills is a huge contributor to my depression. It's why I'm typing on my laptop now, not out with my mates. Well, I'm also ill, which doesn't help (OMGz, SWINE FLUZ) but my point is, well, yeah, I lack social skillz.

In school, I have 24 lessons a week. 19 of these lessons I happen to be in the same class as a particular person. In a variety of these lessons I also sit next to said person. Yet I can't talk to them. I just can't. Yeah, I can "try to continue conversation", but I can't start a conversation, nor can I really carry a conversation. Great isn't it?

I suck.

Said person is a girl. I'll see if you can fill in the gaps.