I don't actually visit here anymore. So this will probably be my last update. Having said that, I love whining about my life so much, why would I miss the chance?

Bearing in mind a lot has happened over the last half-year, I'll try to keep this short. As I was typing this, I just ate four milk-chocolate rich-tea biscuits. Yes, fail. I'm not supposed to have them due to the milk and wheat but every now and then I hurt myself just because they taste so nice.

Best place to start this is the fear I may have autism jumped to mind just half-a year ago, after a discussion about someone who did have it. Things seemed to make sense.

This thought stayed in my mind.

And then I decided to check up on it through the internet. Then later, early October, I decided to hint at it to my parents. My dad then suggested it. Which was what I wanted to happen.

But fuck me, that night I could not sleep.

And it was the same until I posted the entire story of my life on an unsuspecting internet forum, one I hadn't regularly visited in ages. The forum doesn't have a lot of members anymore. Which made it a better choice for me. Less members = Closer relationship.

Even though I didn't see any replies until the next day, I could sleep. Y'see, I couldn't sleep because I had a million thoughts running through my head. Putting them all into words, structuring them into sentences, and then into paragraphs. Yeah, I was still thinking about it, still do. But I could sleep.

Don't know if I'm autistic though. Will knowing help? I decided I didn't want to know since I'd use it as an excuse for everything. Funny thing is, the same night my parents found out my thoughts, well, they found it because I was trying to use it as an excuse. Instead of my excuse being autism, it's "I might have autism". Funny isn't it.

Anyway, I got myself a phone. This to give me a better connection to my mates. Before it was face-to-face, then I got facebook. I did that mainly because I love my friends, and after I leave school I probably won't see any of them again. But then I need a phone, don't I? Makes me far easier to contact. Well, it would do if I didn't accidentally press the "end call" button every time I get called. :3 --Accidental BTW, I get a call and press the right button instead of the left one. The phone's proved useful.

In some ways more than others. Left in the bloody cold, alone for two-hours as early as 7:45 in the morning is never fun, no matter what you say.

Anyway, for music, I use "AudioJelly" more nowadays. And I was bored, so I decided to go through all of the genres and listen to them. Tech-Trance was the most disappointing. And some of the Drum & Bass I listened to was alright. Donnie Dubson's stuff, anyway. My music has truly hit 1500 now. Before it was close, and then I deleted a load of stuff... and now I have 1509. Including the "Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End" soundtrack. Hans Zimmer. I was watching At World's End on TV and thought "this music is lovely". Anyway, a week later I watched Dead Man's Chest on TV. Which is retarded because At World's End is a direct sequel to Dead Man's Chest. Wrong way round. Anyway, the music is nowhere near as good, and nor is the film. Dead Man's Chest really does suck. And At World's End is actually good. Curse of the Black Pearl is still the best though.

Ha! I've probably forgotten everything I wanted to say, but whatever. This is like a compilation of many of the things I've discussed over the last half-year. And many things aren't included. Like I haven't mentioned the girlfriend thing. Or why Within Temptation is so awesome. Or why Evanescence was so much better when Ben Moody was there, how Fallen is so much better than The Open Door, but how "We Are The Fallen", though awesome, is not as good as Lee and Moody together. And how Imagine by AvB is awesome. And how Imagine's Sharon den Adel (of Within Temptation) and Chris Jones, when together without AvB are still awesome with their track "Utopia". Watch the vid on YouTube. It's awesome.

But for now, happy New Year. And that actually means something since I never wish people anything. "Merry Christmas" is a greeting on the days around Christmas, you're not wishing them a happy time. When writing Christmas cards you think "Who do I know?", not "Who do I wish a merry Christmas?"

And don't get me started on how the New Year's celebration is just a massive waste of money.